Thursday, December 22, 2011
I've explained in an earlier entries that I don't just feel pain at the site of the injury, but also the places where those nerves control. With my lower back, I feel pain down my leg. I also have fun experiences while sneezing and other sundry things. For my neck -- the pain radiates over my left shoulder, down my biceps/triceps, to my index finger and thumb.
I've mentally compiled (and sometimes unleash on Twitter) lists of "It's fun to ____________" statements such as "it's fun to do laundry with a herniated disc in your neck" or "it's fun trying to pick up the sock you dropped." Even the simplest things become difficult tasks that require a bit of creativity and humor. But sometimes it's really hard to find the humor (like when I have to brace myself against a wall when I feel a sneeze coming on, or else I'll totally pee at the same time).
I'm feeling very sorry for myself lately because it's hard to feel young & vibrant when my body is crapping out on me. I go to bed every night wishing someone was lying next to me, lightly tracing his fingers over my spine and saying "It will be okay." I wake up in the morning wishing he was there saying "I'll help you in the shower." I wish he was there saying "don't worry, I'll do the dishes."